Radiation anxiety

So treatment has started and I am on a emotional roller coaster.  I am  trying to be positive and happy but all around me  are not positive and happy.  Kirk is really struggling with all this and trying to work on his anxiety at the same time.  He is so quick to get upset and I am still the one in the range of his despair.  His anxiety prevents him from so much and he just needs support that I can not give him.  That of his children.  Alicia has been wonderful.  She does as best she can to help and understand but she also has a heavy load between school, soccer,friends and her health.  Our son  has his life and we are not often part of it.  A friend of mine is going through a very tough round of cancer.  Her family ( for which I am very happy for her) is always rallying around her.  They have been great.  That has been so cool and yet hurtful to watch.  We have lots of extended family  who have all been great.   Anxiety is a killer in many cases, and stopping it can be the difference between quality life and not having any quality to life.  For me anxiety is slower creeping into my life in my body, despite the years I have watched it in Kirk. I truly think it has caused my cancer.  I hope that it will change sometime soon.